Destiny

yeh us waqt ki baat hai jb chotey bhai ka result aaya he when he saw that he has passed the exam to he started crying, crying so loud k my mom screamed "kiya hogya?" ro kyun rhe ho yeh to khushi ki baat hai, be he kept crying and i was sitting in front of him watching him and smilling, thinking "Finally he has found his destiny, kitna khushnaseeb hai k yeh ro skta hai, is ne itni koshish k aakhir he finally found his destiny, yeh sala aanso bhi ajeeb cheez hote hai khushi ho ya ghum, umad hi aate hai, na khabhi moqa dekhte bus chalak jatey hai...
phir i thot perhaps yehi to nishani hai Insan hone ki, yeh hi to btatte hain k hum ne kitni justajo ki thi kisi ko paane ki, kisi ki mehromiyo ki kahani to kisi ki fatoohat ka naama hain yeh aanso...yehi to hain jo hum main aur haiwano main farq krte hain....then i thot khabhi mera bhi aesa waqt aaya hai k jub i so wanted to kneel down and cry and many moment passed by, but at that tym i ddint cry cz what every one thot a destiny was just a check point for me, tho i knelt down, tired and wounded by still i knew there are more to go, way to go beyond...mujhe pta hi nai meri mazil kiya hai, main hi aesa kyun hun, main aaik aam insan ki tarah kyun nai, choti choti khushiyo pe khush hona, wese hi naraz hojana.....!! kiya main insan bhi hun k nai...
then a thot came shayed main hi to insan hun jis k bare main Allah SWT said "Beshak insan khasare main hai", Insan ki khawahiso ki koi limit nai, wo ksi cheez pe khush nai hota usey bus aur chahiye hota hai
phir kuch logo ki baat yaad aaye "Alvi Just love himself, noone else". Yeh baat bhi maan k main kuch arsa chala mgr wo kehte hai na k jisey chaho ya to usey apna bna lo ya khud us k ban jao...mgr main na to khud ko apna bna ska nahi main khud apna bn ska :S
to phir kiya hai meri haqeeqat, kiya hun main....mujhe khud nai pta, and still trying to find that answer